When your whole world feels like it is crashing in. When it feels like there is a darkness swallowing you up. When it feels like hope is a far off, intangible, elusive, figure of someone else’s imagination. When it feels like chasing after hope is a futile waste of energy. When you can’t even imagine exerting the energy to chase after hope. When your heart hurts so much it feels like it is caving in. When you don’t know how to face the next hour, let alone the next day, week, or year. When your stomach is so knotted that the thought of eating a meal makes your stomach turn over rather than grumble in hunger.
What do you do when your bones burn as embers and your heart is blighted and withered like grass? What do you do when grief ravages your soul? How do you make sense of senseless events?
Psalm 102:1-11 (NIV)
A prayer of an afflicted person who has grown weak and pours out a lament before the Lord.
Hear my prayer, Lord;
let my cry for help come to you.
Do not hide your face from me
when I am in distress.
Turn your ear to me;
when I call, answer me quickly.
For my days vanish like smoke;
my bones burn like glowing embers.
My heart is blighted and withered like grass;
I forget to eat my food.
In my distress I groan aloud
and am reduced to skin and bones.
I am like a desert owl,
like an owl among the ruins.
I lie awake; I have become
like a bird alone on a roof.
All day long my enemies taunt me;
those who rail against me use my name as a curse.
For I eat ashes as my food
and mingle my drink with tears
because of your great wrath,
for you have taken me up and thrown me aside.
My days are like the evening shadow;
I wither away like grass.
Where do you turn when you feel like you are withering away like grass? How do you let hope find you?
Do you know that when you are in this pit of darkness, that God is with you? He is offering you hope.
And, so, when your heart is crushed and your world has been knocked off its axis, you turn to the Lord. You plead the blood of Jesus upon your soul. You LET HIM GIVE YOU THE DESIRE TO GET OUT OF THE MIREY PIT. And when the desire comes, embrace it! It might come in a crashing wave or it might come in the slow trickle of the beginnings of a tiny little creek. But God WILL give you a desire to get out of the pit. He WILL come to your rescue. If you haven’t already, ask him to rescue you now or you are wondering about His willingness to help you, read one of these stories:
- Genesis 15:1-6 and Genesis 21:1-7 where God keeps His promise to give Abraham & Sarah a son
- Joshua 2:1-6:25 and Matthew 1:5 to see how God used Rahab the prostitute in the genealogy of Jesus
- Genesis 37-47 to see how God used multiple disasters in Joseph’s life to save the people of Israel
You might not be able to let God give you this willingness to leave the mirey pit on your own. That is OK. REACH OUT FOR HELP! You may need some stretcher bearers. Check out this story from the New Testament where a man’s friends carried him to Jesus for healing:
A few days later, when Jesus again entered Capernaum, the people heard that he had come home. They gathered in such large numbers that there was no room left, not even outside the door, and he preached the word to them. Some men came, bringing to him a paralyzed man, carried by four of them. Since they could not get him to Jesus because of the crowd, they made an opening in the roof above Jesus by digging through it and then lowered the mat the man was lying on. When Jesus saw their faith, he said to the paralyzed man, “Son, your sins are forgiven.”
Now some teachers of the law were sitting there, thinking to themselves, “Why does this fellow talk like that? He’s blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone?”
Immediately Jesus knew in his spirit that this was what they were thinking in their hearts, and he said to them, “Why are you thinking these things? Which is easier: to say to this paralyzed man, ‘Your sins are forgiven,’ or to say, ‘Get up, take your mat and walk’? But I want you to know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins.” So he said to the man, “I tell you, get up, take your mat and go home.” He got up, took his mat and walked out in full view of them all. This amazed everyone and they praised God, saying, “We have never seen anything like this!” (Mark 2:1-12 NIV)
If you are feeling so stuck in the mire, and feeling that your withered heart is incapable of allowing God to heal it, reach out to someone and just ask for help. Reach out to your friend, parent, counselor, pastor, youth director, teacher, someone. There are people around you who care about you and will help you – they will be your stretcher bearers and will carry you to the help you need, who will pour out the love of Jesus upon you.
If you are ready to open your heart to receive healing from God – to allow Him to pick you up and put the shattered pieces of your life together one piece at a time – know this: God is already with you. He is longing to help you, to renew you, to strengthen you. I invite you to pray with me:
Declare in Jesus’ Name: I am of sound mind and body. I am getting a little bit better every day. God is making me whole. God is making me strong. God is giving me hope – a little bit of light in the darkness – that grows more and more every day. God is making me strong. God has called me for a purpose. I am no longer a slave to grief/depression/anxiety. I am a child of God. To the spirit of grief, I say, “you have no authority here. You have no dominion here. You have been conquered by Jesus’ Name. In the Name of Jesus, be gone.” To the spirit of suicide, I say, “You have NO authority in my house or in my children’s schools. Jesus has conquered you. You must leave.” God has saved me because He delights in me.
God has great, amazing plans for you. He will use whatever trials you go through for good, for He loves you very, very much.